Picking up the pieces of
Who I’m about to be
In a future
Unknown to me
Spinning around in memories
I wanted so badly
Gasping for my heartbeat
To carry me
I will find my home
You have to focus on yourself, he said
I know, I answer
But where am I?
He looked down on his hands
I don’t know, he answered
Somewhere lost in the middle
I looked in his eyes to find a clue
His eyes were serious, quiet
I knew I was on my own
I closed the door
And went out to the parkinglot
Haven’t I been here before?
In this merry go round
As a little child
Sitting on that wooden pony
With my hair all around my face
Scared to fall off
Scared to hide
Scared to go
How do I get my act right
In the circus
When I fear the clowns
When I fear the night
Who’s there to hold me
Who’s there to save me
Hello everybody. First of all thanks to each and every one of you who is following or visiting my blog. I appreciate you.
Lately I’m been trying to handle my stress and anxiety by doing something more creative, than siting in the sofa feeling anxious!
So I’ve been starting to take photographs with my simple I-phone SE and below are some of my photographs.
So tired and confused
For you to
Invite me over
On my planet there are
So many stars
And an imaginary ladder
To each and every one
On your planet
You say the train and boats
I say, I can carry you
Over the bridges
Over the fire
Just to sleep in your arms
You say I must wait
Until you’re strong enough
To carry me
Soon it’s springtime and I’m determined to make the best of my days to come.
Life is short, this is a phrase we all use, but often don’t really act on.
We keep on going in the same direction, we hang out with the same people even with those who does not appreciate us. We go to the same job and we don’t expect more from us nor from our life, than what we did yesterday.
I want to change that. I want to reach higher. I want to get rid of my low self esteem and my winter depression, due to struggle at work and in my provate life. And I want to learn to appreciate myself more. And to tell myself that I survive, even if someone leaves me.
I wish you all a wonderful weekend. And for you who’s struggling or suffering. I root for you.
But I can’t help falling in love with you
Shall I stay?
Would it be a sin
If I can’t help falling in love with you?
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
No matter all the obstacles
No matter what people are saying
No matter all he odds against us
Wise men say you should not depend on someone
But I say they are afraid of love
Because love is scary, and always out of control
Love is for the brave one, not for the wise ones
We’re fighting the distance
We’re fighting bad health
We’re fighting social rules
But here we are, still togheter
I love you more for every day
I will never, ever give up on you
I’ve have to be dead or
I can’t fly, I can’t make a spider web and I don’t drive a fancy car.
Still I can be a hero, so can you.
I think being a hero for yourself, is when you start to back up on yourself, when you start to protect yourself, when you start to encourage yourself and when you start to forgive yourself. It doesn’t have to be a huge project. It can be a very small act of kindness towards yourself.
I’ve decided to be a hero and to walk out on the battlefield and take up the fight against my panic, anxiety and low selfesteem….again.
I’ve been on that battlefield for many years, but lately I’ve been tired and sitting beside the empty battlefield, converting my life to a safe comfort zone, sittting in a trench from which I’m safe, but from wich I can’t go anywhere.
I decided to leave this trench and go out one more time on the battlefield.
I’ve taken the decision to change my situation. To rescue me.
So can you.
You and I can also be somebody elses hero, already today.
You can help someone today. You can give away money to someone who needs it more than you. You can make a phonecall to someone who is more lonely thatn you. You can back up on someone at your job who have a hard time.
You can start today. Yes you can!
Please tell me about your own experiences about being a hero for yourself or for somebody else in the comments below. Your story will be a joy and inspiration to others.
Thank you all for reading and I wish you all a wonderful weekend. And for you who is suffering, please hang on. Don’t give up. You’re not alone.